Skip to main content

When loss is a gain


Last week, on Thursday, we were at a Indian Grocery store and after that I could not trace my leather gloves. It has been a severe winter and without it it was a painful task to get out in the morning to dust off the snow from my car. This was the second pair that I had lost in the last months and each costs $20- so you can imagine my upset at being stupid enough to repeat the mistake.

On Friday morning, I saw that the car windows were covered with frost but I went to work with the scrapper , wearing just the woolen gloves. Later I started the car, turned on the heater, locked the car with the engine running using a spare key and stepped back into the warmth of my home and for a cup of coffee. In ten minutes, I was on my way to work.

After parking the car in the basement I picked up my laptop bag, lunch bag, another plastic carry bag containing some winter wear and both car keys. Having pocketed the keys, I walked up to the digital employee ID scanner which opened the door to the building with a clicking sound. As I reached the door to my office, I realized that I was missing my spare key. I was distraught. I opened the door , placed my bags inside and decided to re-trace my steps to the car to see if I had dropped it en route. I prayed briefly to Ramana Maharshi’s portrait in my office and stepped out. I walked with my eyes scanning the floor- and moved out of the building’s automated door to the parking lot- no sign of the key. I opened the car door and checked everywhere. I even walked around the car and looked underneath to see if it had fallen there- no luck. At this point I realized that my key had gone missing and that I had left my ID card in my office – so I could not get into the building now! At that moment I noticed another car was parking and an Indian stepping out. I decided to following him and enter the building quietly when he opened the door with his ID. So I picked up my pace and kept very close behind him. He swiped his ID and entered while holding the door briefly for me. At the moment, in what I consider a miracle, my myopic eyes spotted the key on the dark floor. I picked it up in one smooth movement without letting the door close

Once inside the office I sat down at my desk and thanked Providence for this favor.

Later , on Saturday, my son informed me that he found my gloves behind the settee in the living room.

I new then that I had gained more than a pair of gloves or a wayward key. I regained a misplaced faith. These miracles have re-affirmed my faith in the One without the Second. I feel humbled by the experience - He took pity on me and showed me the way…

I want to conclude this with a quote from “The Little Zen Companion”:
The Way is not difficult; only there must be no wanting or not wanting.
Chao-Chou

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Lessons of life- from a squirrel!

As I type this I hear a knocking sound at my window and, lo and behold , there is this beautiful squirrel standing up with it’s two front legs resting on the glass. He had a brief look at me and ran away. Talking of squirrels, last week , I was driving to a store with the significant half beside me when suddenly she says in Tamil, ” Turn back fellow !”. I looked at her incredulously and she says, “Not you, there was this squirrel coming our of the garden patch and had crawled up into the road ahead and as if he could hear me, turned back into the grass safely!”. Not all have a safe trip across the roads though. You find them plastered on the road – a squash of flesh and blood. A couple of days ago, when driving to work on the highway- a six lane road with a center wall of around 3 feet height in the median, I noticed a squirrel dart across the road and climb up the center wall. I do not know if he made it across to the other side but it got me thinking. What was it on the other side th...

At Home

I walked into my home that night and felt totally at ease- everything was exactly as I had left it a year ago. It seemed like a dream scene- my father and my in-laws were sitting there and I eagerly held their hands and felt their presence with every cell in my being. I was glad to feel the firm mattress and the old familiar pillow under my head as I drifted off to sleep. The jet lag caused me to wake up at 3:00 am and I waited for the first light of dawn to see the world that was removed from my vision a year ago. We hit the jogger’s park and someone mentioned that they are seeing us after a long time- we just smiled and continued walking. Later we went off to the vegetable market to soak in the steaming sunshine. We argued with the vendors and shaved of a few rupees- we tested to check if our negotiating skills were still intact. The Auto rickshaws passed inches away from our chappals and we did not cringe. The deaf and dumb vegetable vendor opposite the Oswal Grain store was at his ...

On Golden Pond

This is a movie that will stay with me till my last breath. It touched me as no other motion picture has. Henry Fonda and Katharine Hepburn have made this a movie to remember for a life time! I will say no more. Just get the DVD and view it. You will never ever forget it.